So spending a full day at home, almost alone for the whole day, is pretty fun after all. Though it may seem that I have only done theory, some chinese and like some packing of the room, I was really quite fun and a rather interesting day. =)
Last night, went out to coffee bean with kennedy and junliang and we chatted until like 12 hahah. Reached home at around 1205 then bathed and came online a while before going off. Talking to them like this really opens up many doors haha cause we talk about interesting stuff ;), about people, about thinking stuff, and just about life hahah~ It's really very interesting to know what they are thinking so yea was pretty fun.
So after that, today was more time to think and think and think. Some may say that thinking a lot is bad cause you might jus think too much then go crazy or something haha. But I feel that spending time alone sometimes is rather, self-enlightening. Well, many issues going on now for me, theory (as always), Chinese o's, my messy room, stuff that should not be said, and just of the people around me, and obviously of myself also la. Cannot be so cynical of people around me yet don't think about myself also right. ;) im quite narsicisstical after all. (i think i spelt that wrongly)
Yeap, apart from the million theory papers that I did, and read through some Chinese, I FINALLY managed to get started on packing my room. As i stacked up my old worksheets, I came across many of my past exam papers. SS CT1, Maths TA's, Physics papers etc.. All these reminded me of my life for the past 4 years or so. It seems that as i throw away all my papers, all that is part of me of my life in RI is being thrown away also. Seems pretty sad eh, but i guess as Bong says, its not all about the grades that matter in RI, memories are also important yea~
Looking at my history paper, it does bring me back to the past when junliang, hanson, elton, kennedy and i were mugging for CT1. All the stupid crap about Darwin's theory of evolution and like evolutionist vs creationist where quite obviously all hanson,kennedy and elton were like procreationist cause of obvoius reasons.. So ya it was pretty dumb as i remember how i was like spacing out then and gettin super confused and frustrated over that issue.. But well, it was fun times, mugging at the club, hanging out with them, very very fun experiences.
Reminds me of the stuff we talked about last night. haha about the our circle of friends. Rather interesting topic that would surely leave me thinking for a while.. I mean those who read my blog would certainly have much to say about this topic too but yea i guses sometimes, myself for instance would rather just stay out of matters, as the saying goes, too many cooks spoil the broth, too many friends spoil the party? ok bad analogy but hm.. maybe? Well my point is that for me i guess sometimes organizing things is rather difficult, so gotta go easy on bert sometimes ;) Some people would rather not hang out with some people, some just dislike some people, some are neutral with some people, some people don't talk with each other though they know each other, some people talk a lot with some people, some people have their own cliques, some people just want to hang out yet not talk, some people just want to... So yea, just some of the many considerations people have to take into account when inviting people out haha. So yea i guess sometimes it's just easier to go out in small groups ya ;)
Moving on..
I have renewed my liking for hello panda! After spending a glorious $4.70 at NTUC to buy this pack of 10 packets of hello panda, I am feasting on them in my room every now and then. :D Yes i still have like 6 bars of Fruity Bix Bars on top of my printer directly in front of me but i think i'll lay off them till my braces don't hurt my teeth so much. So till then, hello panda all the way! hahaha~ hope i don't get fat xD
Impending RJC life, matriculation is just tomorrow. Today i actually went to surf the net about universities. Rather interesting stuff too ;) Ivy league, Princeton, Stanford, Yale, Harvard, Oxbridge, MIT, Caltech.. hmm it seems really far-fetched to think so far ahead, but maybe fail to plan = plan to fail, and life is all about dreams anyway, achieving them or not is another matter. Dreams push us on to do great things even if the outcome is what we desire it to be. So maybe it's time i start to dream big and maybe one day my dream will come true? haha but i guess going to ivy league colleges/universities are also not much of a big deal. anyway what do i want to be in the future? a pilot? hm.. then i guess aerospace engineering in NUS will be good enough to keep me going. OR unless i go to MIT/Caltech to do the same thing, but what point is there in doing that? heh~ well you do need to be a rocket scientist to fly rockets but flying planes, do i really need to know that much about engineering? -ponder- who knows eh?
Physics, Chemistry, Economics, Maths. a rather common combination but i guess what's wrong with being common if common is the way to go? If it's the path to doing what you want who cares eh? I mean yes it is rather prestigious to take Humanes' but like todays papers, RJC Year 2 Student Wee something's blogged was deleted cause of some sensitive stuff or something and she was claimed to be an elitist? So hm, humanes' scholarship + daughter of MP = that? Maybe ill just stick to being a plain ol' Science-stream-common-as-ever-boy who just wants to do what he wants :D I might consider KI but highly unlikely, or maybe China Studies H1 to max out my 12 units. Or maybe H3 chemistry sometime, not sure if i should decide on it tomorrow but i really have no idea what to do. so as always, we'll see.
"We'll see." a rather common phrase used by me nowadays i think. but well i guess it's better to be unsure than to make empty promises. Say i agree to go out with a movie then suddenly i say i don't want to. It's gonna suck more than hating me all along cause im always so indecisive right then finally realizing that i've 'disappointed' you i guess eh heh. The greater the expectations, the greater the fall. The greater the expectations, the greater the reward, too. Hm.. Sounds fun.
I think i just realized i should have gone shoppin with philbert today. It's not that i don't want to, but i'm really going to feel insecure if i go out relaxing now and don't study for theory/chinese. Theory is really worrying me now, i have to learn my terms soon and i think that's all thats bugging me hahah~ I should do ok, I shouldn't fail, but i want to get at least merit. >< highly unlikely im going to get distinction anyway so ya i hope i can just do well~ pray for me yea?
Oh earlier, i was reading this chat log of around end of last year before school started. Really interesting and very entertaining, i was almost laughing my socks off as to how lame i was but yea i'm keeping that log there to use for blackmail LOL! just kidding. it'll make me laugh again sometime soon i guess..
Ah well, such a meaningful day it has been, though yes it has been awfully boring too at times. Guess that's the way life is, or is it? Haha im trying not to attribute everything to 'that's the way life is' now cause the way you live you life is really up to you, so if "that's the way life is" and "life just plain sucks" then i guess i suck? shit. thats bad. food for thought ya ;)
Last night, went out to coffee bean with kennedy and junliang and we chatted until like 12 hahah. Reached home at around 1205 then bathed and came online a while before going off. Talking to them like this really opens up many doors haha cause we talk about interesting stuff ;), about people, about thinking stuff, and just about life hahah~ It's really very interesting to know what they are thinking so yea was pretty fun.
So after that, today was more time to think and think and think. Some may say that thinking a lot is bad cause you might jus think too much then go crazy or something haha. But I feel that spending time alone sometimes is rather, self-enlightening. Well, many issues going on now for me, theory (as always), Chinese o's, my messy room, stuff that should not be said, and just of the people around me, and obviously of myself also la. Cannot be so cynical of people around me yet don't think about myself also right. ;) im quite narsicisstical after all. (i think i spelt that wrongly)
Yeap, apart from the million theory papers that I did, and read through some Chinese, I FINALLY managed to get started on packing my room. As i stacked up my old worksheets, I came across many of my past exam papers. SS CT1, Maths TA's, Physics papers etc.. All these reminded me of my life for the past 4 years or so. It seems that as i throw away all my papers, all that is part of me of my life in RI is being thrown away also. Seems pretty sad eh, but i guess as Bong says, its not all about the grades that matter in RI, memories are also important yea~
Looking at my history paper, it does bring me back to the past when junliang, hanson, elton, kennedy and i were mugging for CT1. All the stupid crap about Darwin's theory of evolution and like evolutionist vs creationist where quite obviously all hanson,kennedy and elton were like procreationist cause of obvoius reasons.. So ya it was pretty dumb as i remember how i was like spacing out then and gettin super confused and frustrated over that issue.. But well, it was fun times, mugging at the club, hanging out with them, very very fun experiences.
Reminds me of the stuff we talked about last night. haha about the our circle of friends. Rather interesting topic that would surely leave me thinking for a while.. I mean those who read my blog would certainly have much to say about this topic too but yea i guses sometimes, myself for instance would rather just stay out of matters, as the saying goes, too many cooks spoil the broth, too many friends spoil the party? ok bad analogy but hm.. maybe? Well my point is that for me i guess sometimes organizing things is rather difficult, so gotta go easy on bert sometimes ;) Some people would rather not hang out with some people, some just dislike some people, some are neutral with some people, some people don't talk with each other though they know each other, some people talk a lot with some people, some people have their own cliques, some people just want to hang out yet not talk, some people just want to... So yea, just some of the many considerations people have to take into account when inviting people out haha. So yea i guess sometimes it's just easier to go out in small groups ya ;)
Moving on..
I have renewed my liking for hello panda! After spending a glorious $4.70 at NTUC to buy this pack of 10 packets of hello panda, I am feasting on them in my room every now and then. :D Yes i still have like 6 bars of Fruity Bix Bars on top of my printer directly in front of me but i think i'll lay off them till my braces don't hurt my teeth so much. So till then, hello panda all the way! hahaha~ hope i don't get fat xD
Impending RJC life, matriculation is just tomorrow. Today i actually went to surf the net about universities. Rather interesting stuff too ;) Ivy league, Princeton, Stanford, Yale, Harvard, Oxbridge, MIT, Caltech.. hmm it seems really far-fetched to think so far ahead, but maybe fail to plan = plan to fail, and life is all about dreams anyway, achieving them or not is another matter. Dreams push us on to do great things even if the outcome is what we desire it to be. So maybe it's time i start to dream big and maybe one day my dream will come true? haha but i guess going to ivy league colleges/universities are also not much of a big deal. anyway what do i want to be in the future? a pilot? hm.. then i guess aerospace engineering in NUS will be good enough to keep me going. OR unless i go to MIT/Caltech to do the same thing, but what point is there in doing that? heh~ well you do need to be a rocket scientist to fly rockets but flying planes, do i really need to know that much about engineering? -ponder- who knows eh?
Physics, Chemistry, Economics, Maths. a rather common combination but i guess what's wrong with being common if common is the way to go? If it's the path to doing what you want who cares eh? I mean yes it is rather prestigious to take Humanes' but like todays papers, RJC Year 2 Student Wee something's blogged was deleted cause of some sensitive stuff or something and she was claimed to be an elitist? So hm, humanes' scholarship + daughter of MP = that? Maybe ill just stick to being a plain ol' Science-stream-common-as-ever-boy who just wants to do what he wants :D I might consider KI but highly unlikely, or maybe China Studies H1 to max out my 12 units. Or maybe H3 chemistry sometime, not sure if i should decide on it tomorrow but i really have no idea what to do. so as always, we'll see.
"We'll see." a rather common phrase used by me nowadays i think. but well i guess it's better to be unsure than to make empty promises. Say i agree to go out with a movie then suddenly i say i don't want to. It's gonna suck more than hating me all along cause im always so indecisive right then finally realizing that i've 'disappointed' you i guess eh heh. The greater the expectations, the greater the fall. The greater the expectations, the greater the reward, too. Hm.. Sounds fun.
I think i just realized i should have gone shoppin with philbert today. It's not that i don't want to, but i'm really going to feel insecure if i go out relaxing now and don't study for theory/chinese. Theory is really worrying me now, i have to learn my terms soon and i think that's all thats bugging me hahah~ I should do ok, I shouldn't fail, but i want to get at least merit. >< highly unlikely im going to get distinction anyway so ya i hope i can just do well~ pray for me yea?
Oh earlier, i was reading this chat log of around end of last year before school started. Really interesting and very entertaining, i was almost laughing my socks off as to how lame i was but yea i'm keeping that log there to use for blackmail LOL! just kidding. it'll make me laugh again sometime soon i guess..
Ah well, such a meaningful day it has been, though yes it has been awfully boring too at times. Guess that's the way life is, or is it? Haha im trying not to attribute everything to 'that's the way life is' now cause the way you live you life is really up to you, so if "that's the way life is" and "life just plain sucks" then i guess i suck? shit. thats bad. food for thought ya ;)
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